Ode; Aching
There are moments I wish I could remove from my life. Devastating, tragic, traumatic, good that I can never have back. I think as Christians we are afraid to suffer. Fix what is not ours to fix, claim broken what will be used for good. But how do the last two clauses line up? This summer. I walked into it feeling like I was on the most stable and solid ground that I had ever felt in my life. And I don’t doubt that was the case. I walked through more triggers this summer than I ever have in my life. So many moments that brought me back to the hardest, most traumatic days in my life. Constantly watching those around me. And as the days went on I could feel my heart hollow out. And then there were moments. And I walk with them this school year. But I’m not about to share all of my pain in a blog post, I want to share my thoughts from this pain. Many days I’ve let my pain and circumstances make me feel ugly and defective. Thu...