Reflections
Wow! The past 9 days have felt like a whirlwind as school has very suddenly winded down for the semester. Since December 3rd I have handed in; 3 major papers (each around 2000-3700 words each), one final reading assignment, had a vocal recital/exam, and 3 exams in a row. WHAT a week! Now please, don't hear me bragging about all of the work I completed. I wouldn't, nor would any student, wish their workload on anyone (at least I hope not haha). But in this busy season I feel like I have actually learned a little bit about myself along the way.
I learned, again, that I hate stress and pressure. I know I have the ability to get through very high mountains, but I am learning more and more that I hate them. It is in this time that I have also realized how negative I can get under stress. My goal from this is to start being more thankful for the stress and mountains. They are here to push and grow me, I will be better from them. So my goal is, to renew a spirit of thankfulness in the midst of trials and stress - even if it's "just" school.
But, I came to a really cool moment this week. Well it's not that cool as in good, but I'm pleased with what it sparked inside of me. Yesterday (the 11th) was four months since I had gotten a very abrupt wake up call in my life. I got into a serious car accident that most definitely could have taken my life, but somehow I just walked out of the wreck. Since then, this date has been able to serve as a constant reminder of how precious life is, including my own. For years, and almost my whole life prior to this, I never felt as if I really mattered. I dealt with a lot of apathy toward life and people and just covered it up with being funny and making lots of jokes. The rude awakening of facing the possibility that my life could have ended was the biggest slap in the face that I needed, and I didn't even know it. Back to school life, when I realized this date was approaching it was the same day that I had two finals. After a week of papers and tears, I coped by being apathetic and negative. Pondering the reminder that my life is a gift it helped me to realize
there are worse things in life than having two exams in one day.
My life, and especially my education, are gifts. I want to strive to not take those for granted, nor do I want to take the people in my life for granted. Life is a gift and I'm thankful for what God is teaching me in this season. All glory goes to Him cause I don't even know where I would be without Him. I'll leave it here for now though.
--Thanks for reading--
I learned, again, that I hate stress and pressure. I know I have the ability to get through very high mountains, but I am learning more and more that I hate them. It is in this time that I have also realized how negative I can get under stress. My goal from this is to start being more thankful for the stress and mountains. They are here to push and grow me, I will be better from them. So my goal is, to renew a spirit of thankfulness in the midst of trials and stress - even if it's "just" school.
But, I came to a really cool moment this week. Well it's not that cool as in good, but I'm pleased with what it sparked inside of me. Yesterday (the 11th) was four months since I had gotten a very abrupt wake up call in my life. I got into a serious car accident that most definitely could have taken my life, but somehow I just walked out of the wreck. Since then, this date has been able to serve as a constant reminder of how precious life is, including my own. For years, and almost my whole life prior to this, I never felt as if I really mattered. I dealt with a lot of apathy toward life and people and just covered it up with being funny and making lots of jokes. The rude awakening of facing the possibility that my life could have ended was the biggest slap in the face that I needed, and I didn't even know it. Back to school life, when I realized this date was approaching it was the same day that I had two finals. After a week of papers and tears, I coped by being apathetic and negative. Pondering the reminder that my life is a gift it helped me to realize
there are worse things in life than having two exams in one day.
My life, and especially my education, are gifts. I want to strive to not take those for granted, nor do I want to take the people in my life for granted. Life is a gift and I'm thankful for what God is teaching me in this season. All glory goes to Him cause I don't even know where I would be without Him. I'll leave it here for now though.
--Thanks for reading--
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